brief one

quick catching up with roseline, my previous ocbc sup. surprisingly she told me the excitement and sparkle in my eyes since nearly a year ago (phew, THAT was fast) when i was working with her are now somewhat gone/missing. at first, i didn't know how to react to that but as i made time to ponder about my most current evolution, i realize there was some truth to it. well, those dreary eyes may have probably been contributed by lethargy from my first day at work. considering the fact that i had been home most of the time prior to that, it would probably take some time for my bio rhythms to adjust and adapt to new changes in the workings of my body. but in any case, that couldn't be the only reason as to why she said that, could it? or so i thought. in wonderment, i discovered deeper insights about myself...that somehow, along the way i have become more reserved in my vocals, introverted in my courage and quiet in my actions. typing this may seem a complete irony don't you think? hahah :-b well, my point is: being more silent and 'tamed', so to speak, isn't such a bad thing after all. because sometimes, we are too caught up with the worldly world; the age of impressions, perceptions and judgments, that we get too boastful and so full of ourselves knowingly or pretense, unknowingly. whether we realize or don't realize it, we fall trap into our own pity all the same. it's really a pity isn't it (see? i'm doing it. sheesh). okay, i may probably not make sense in my ramblings already. tah!