i am too

when rain falls with its thunders and lightnings, it will not fall forever...
sun's definitely going to shine on us again

when wind gush its gentle cool sweeps, it will not gush forever...
drought's definitely going to warm up to us again

have you ever listened to sutra warna just before mag? the songs played and words of wisdoms shared could meddle with your heart for they meant so truly, like an arrow through a bull's eye. especially when you are at your lowest, alone and dejected, wishing for someone who could come and comfort you and assure you things are going to be alright. sometimes it is tiring to understand others and comfort them when you know you are in need of some comfort yourself. that you too, face your own set of challenges. that you are not as strong as others assume you to be. that it's sad that they think you don't need any sort of relieve and retreat for they think you are capable of doing so yourself. that it is even more exhausting to calm your heart in such given circumstances. but most of all, that it is heart wrenching that when you so need it, you could not turn to Him and be grateful to Him for giving you such gifts of challenges to nudge you of your countless ungratefulness.

success does not mean joy and happiness, failure does not mean depression and sufferings

tomorrow's the start of my internship at Levi Strauss. somehow, i'm relieved the field assignment to Indonesia was cancelled. call me conventional or what-have-you but actually, i can't quite yet imagine how's 3 weeks going to be like without my normal sight and sound of familiarity. i know i got to be doing some travelling alone in the future; learning how to be independent, feeling foreign, adapting to difference, managing missing people etc. but probably it's just a sign that i'm not ready and it's not my time as yet, so chill! (: so much for needing Bahasa as a requisite? well, it's my gain in any case. hopefully it's going to be smooth sailing, or bearable the least. hehe...

Perjalanan masa
Mengajar hati
Semakin tabah kini
Di dalam kemarau dan gerimis
Aku tetap tabah mengharungi

Tuhan
Aku bagaikan sebutir pasir
Yang lemah lagi kerdil
Teguhkan keimanan jiwaku
Agar tidak terpesong darimu

- fauziah latiff